Christian celebrity
Sue Thomas, 64, who made history when she became the first deaf person to ever
work as an undercover FBI investigator, says she was blindsided by former deaf
pastor-turned-atheist Justin Vollmar's decision to publicly renounce Jesus and
wants the deaf community to know that God is real.
In an interview with
The Christian Post Thursday, Thomas highlighted that the deaf population is one
of the largest groups of people unreached by the Gospel in the world.
She acknowledged
that while it is a difficult task reaching the deaf community today, the church
needs to do more in reaching out. Vollmar's experience, she says, is a prime
example of how difficult it is to minister to the deaf community.
While she expressed
concern over how Vollmar's apostasy will "affect other deaf people who do
not know the truth," she said she wanted to serve as a light of
encouragement and inspiration, and shared her lightly edited testimony in an
email below.
I have been
profoundly deaf since the age of 18 months, and was raised in a family where we
attended church on Sunday, and was taught in the home that there is a God and
there's a difference between right and wrong. My parents instilled in me the
belief that there is a God and that He didn't make a mistake, and as a child, I
believed them.
My childhood
days were filled with torments from school bullies and the loneliness of being
left out and not understanding due to my deafness. Yes, there were times when
God brought that glimmer of hope amidst despair through classical music felt
with vibrations or a skating rink where I became a champion skater.
Though there
were rays of sun at times, my life was always tossed among the stormy dark
skies and the question would begin to surface: Did God make a mistake?
My love for
people was taken from me when the silence over took me - as much as I thrive
and want to be with people, I can't, as with groups of people I cannot
understand and always feel left out - the very thing that I want, I can't have.
Yes, the older I got, the more the question became stronger, as well as the
answer - God does make mistakes.
My story is an
interesting one, as my deafness caused me to become a skilled lip reader and
the skill took me to the FBI as an undercover special assistant. Who could have
imagined the girl that was laughed at and despised for talking so poorly would
be in demand at the FBI?
It was in
Washington, D.C. where years of simmering anger turned to rage against God. How
could He give me a good job, but not give me the peace to live with my
deafness? I hated it! I despised it. My deafness was destroying my inner being,
my deafness was seriously doubting God and Him not making mistakes.
The rage became
so over-powering that I left the FBI to search for God. It was a search that
would take me to Columbia Bible College and Seminary in South Carolina where it
is known today as Columbia International University. Most people go to seminary
to become pastors, missionaries, teachers or counselors. I did not. I went to
seminary for one purpose - to find God and to make Him confess, He made a
mistake.
My journey ended
30 years ago on that seminary campus where I met God and wrestled. He won.
That is a story
in itself, a story of lies, of deceit, and living in it until I loathed my life
and became physically ill. God's hand was heavy on me. The college was praying
for my healing, but they thought it was for a physical healing. God gave me a
spiritual healing.
At the age of
35, I finally surrendered my all and asked for His forgiveness. Yes, there is a
transformation in a life that truly repents and comes to the foot of the cross
in brokenness and shame. In my case, the transformation of the hatred and
bitterness over my deafness led to not just the acceptance, but the embracing
of what I once despised.
The silence
would become my best friend. It is only in the silence we truly hear the still
small voice of God. The silence will teach us, if we listen.
The story did
end at the cross, or should I rather say it truly began there. The FBI days
made its way to Hollywood where the TV series, "Sue Thomas: FBEye"
was created and syndicated throughout 65 nations around the world.
The story
continues as I am afflicted with multiple sclerosis but continue to speak
around the world proclaiming the one and living God who makes no mistakes.
For this deaf
man who has made your post to bear no witness unto Him, my heart is saddened.
Will CNN not rather seek the miracles of life for which much has been given or
will they, too, be deaf, and be dead to those who are alive?
The deaf man
screams that there is no God. Well, he never knew Him. He is spiritually dead
and He is deaf as a stone to the voice of a living God.
I can attest
that God does speak in a voice that even the deaf can hear, if they will
listen.
I receive The
Christian Post regularly, and cannot remain silent after reading this article
about the deaf pastor.
I'm simply a
woman that bears witness. I'm simply a voice in the silence.
Wishing you God
speed,
Sue Thomas